Tag: Anonymous

13, 30, 38

13.  hardest character to write.  I think maybe Bleary!Zach.  I wrote all of Bleary from Chris’ perspective.  I had a pretty strong sense of what Zach was going through and what his concerns and motivations were, but I wasn’t in his head. I think maybe one of the subsequent shorts was from his perspective (The Other 364), but that’s really it.  So when I switched to him for Cleaving, which really had to be from his POV, I think it’s taken me a while to find his voice, and I’m not sure it’s as strong as I wish it were, even now when the story’s almost finished.

30. hardest part of writing.  Finding time to do it when I’m not fucking exhausted.  Sorry, but it’s really true.  I work full time, have two kids, am PTA president, and have social engagements with friends and family.  And a husband I enjoy spending time with occasionally when we can both set aside our other obligations.  I feel bad for my readers that they have to wait a month or more for chapters, but that’s just my life right now.   Writing comes last in the list of priorities.  It’s my hobby, and by the time I get to it in the evening, sometimes all I have the energy to do is tumble or read.

38.  do you reread your own stories?  If someone starts commenting on a story that I wrote a while ago, I’ll sometimes reread so I can understand what they’re reacting to and respond intelligently (and enjoy their enthusiasm). It’s almost always in response to another person, not just because I want to revisit the story.  And sometimes I cringe, but mostly I look to see what THEY enjoyed and revel in that a bit. 

Hi! I wanted to tell you that your writing inspires me. I’ve been having a hard time getting along cause some shit has been going down, but your writing always gets me into a good headspace. I always feel better after reading a little (or a lot haha) of your writing, and it makes me feel better about writing myself (it’s felt like a chore lately) bc I want to create something that makes people happy too. It makes it feel worth it if I could make a person feel as good as you make me so thanks. <3

Wow!  Thank you so much anon!  That is just wonderful to hear.  I wish I could tell you I was writing fic now, but unfortunately I’m writing a report for work instead.

I’m thrilled to hear that my writing has helped you in any way.  It cheers me up too, smashing these dorks’ faces together (at least when they cooperate).  I’m so pleased to hear that their stories bring you happiness and especially that it encourages you to write as well.

Thank you so much for letting me know.  It’s quite a nice break from the rather difficult task I’m working on and makes me look forward to getting some fic time in this weekend 😉

Hi I’m a big fan of your bleary verse and I was wondering if you’d continue to do little one shot fics in that verse after you finish Cleaving. I really really am in total love with your Zach and Chris interaction as well as their interaction with Nathan. It just feels so real. I’d be really sad if you make the decision not to, but there’s no pressure please don’t feel any pressure. Thanks for all you do and write!

Oh, thank you so much!  

I honestly don’t know.  I never
really intended to write much more after Bleary, though I posted a
deleted scene right after publishing.  Where I’d left them… they could
have stayed there indefinitely.  But then little moments came to me, so
I wrote them out.  And then Cleaving came to me, and that’s a full
story, though it’s taken me ages to write it.  So I’m going to say I
have no plans to write more of these boys, but you never know.  Their
voices definitely don’t intrude on my mind as much as they used to, and
that’s usually why I write.  To make the voices stop.

Finding
time to write has been harder lately.  I have a Spirk story to finish,
and want to migrate a story from another fandom over to AO3, so I have
things to keep me busy while I wait for the Pinto voices to get
insistent enough to make me write.  And those Pinto voices might not be
Bleary.  I’ve been thinking about the Assumptions/Revelations/Weight of a
Gaze boys, and the new disaster Pinto fic keeps teasing around the
edges of my mind, as well as ideas for 00q.  So I don’t know if I’ll
return to the Bleary boys anytime soon once Cleaving is finished (and I
expect 2 more chapters and an epilogue for that).  But they’ve surprised
me before.  And returning to them is always like having old friends
visit.  So if something compelling comes to mind, I won’t resist.

So we’ll see.  Even as I say no, I’ve
started to think that a Christmas short might be in order again.  
Though I started Cleaving last Christmas and look where we are…

I don’t know you other than I read Cleaving religiously and compare it to favourite blankets on AO3, but I’m super glad your G’Pa is ok. 🙂

Aw, thank you!  It does help explain why I’ve written no Cleaving for over a week.  Oooh, and I remember that blanket comment.  I loved that one ❤

I hope you’ve read the other Blearyverse stories too.  Not sure Cleaving makes sense without them.

And now I’m off to try to get my head back in the game and write a bit.  Wish me luck!

Ok Closer by The Chainsmokers is a huge Chris/Zach song for me and reading your pinto fics makes me hear that song when they interact cause it’s so perfect for them. It’s just that idea of never getting older and just being together. I get that vibe so much from your writing. Amazing job, honestly!! Thank you for all your work!

Oh, I’ll have to look it up and have a listen.  Thanks anon!  (are you the same anon as this morning?  I don’t think I’ve ever gotten 2 anons in one day).  I’m so glad you enjoy my writing!  Thanks so much for letting me know.

Hi! I apologize for bad grammar/spelling in advance cause there’s a lot I wanna say ^^’ I am in love w ur bleary verse Nathan is so precious & I wanna snug him & Ur Chris and Zach are perfect & lovely & I love them & U. Ur writing makes me so immensely happy & I just wanted u to kno how much I appreciate all of ur hard work for people like me. I just can’t believe how much I love the way u write it’s so beautiful and the pacing is awesome! Thank u for all the hard work you do!

Oh what a very, VERY nice thing to wake up to.  Thank you so much!  It has been hard to be motivated to write lately (work is demanding, rl is demanding, people are sick, interest in Bleary seems to be waning) and this is just the jolt of encouragement I need to get back into it this weekend and try to finish the chapter.  I’m so glad these boys bring you happiness.  They are a fun little family to write, and I’ll be a bit sad when I finish their series and leave them behind (tho I’ll leave them in a good place, promise). 

Thank you again.  Honestly, your timing could not have been better.  Never doubt the power of a few kind words on the internal life of a writer.