Meme thing

Both @lookthatway and @nekoii-akwelvhi tagged me in the meme where you post the last sentence you wrote and then tag as many people as there are words in that sentence. And I actually wrote today, so here it goes.

But he is not back in a week, and as the building explodes, all he can think is that Q is absolutely going to kill him.

Of course, it can’t be one of my plucky little sentences…

I’ll do my best: @a-forger-and-a-point-man, @beaubete , @boffin1710 , @commodorecliche , @captainkatieb, @drgrlfriend, @entrenous88, @elisa-pie, @jaimistoryteller, @loves-pie, @multifandom-madnesss, @opalescentgold, @rabidchild67, @semperama, @seepunkrun, @suedescripture, @cheile, @trekbedtimestories, @zjofierose, @svengooliecat , @television-and-tea , @castillon02 , @alexandre00q , @moonwest , @moitmiller , @mightymads

Whew… no idea if all these folks are writing (or writing at the moment), so if I tagged you and you don’t want to, please ignore, and if I didn’t tag you and you DO want to, please consider yourself tagged.

writing meme – 6, 23, 24, 35

6. Favorite character you’ve written?  God, that’s hard (my babeees!)  I guess Bleary!Chris… especially in the beginning when he’s trying to do the right thing by his friend and not let his own feelings get in his way, but then completely sucks at keeping them at bay.  But I like Assumption!Zach, too (kinky bastard).

23. Most anticipated upcoming books? I’m not sure if this means thing *I* most anticipate reading by someone else, or thing I write that is most anticipated.  If the former, well, probably New York 2140.  Unless you mean fanfic, then probably the next chapter of The Princess Diaries (And Me) or My Pleasure
(fans self).  If the latter, definitely the last chapter of Cleaving, which readers have been waiting on for months (sorry!)

24. Do you remember the moment you decided to become a writer/author?   Well, I’ve pretty much always told myself stories, especially based on beloved characters.  But really it wasn’t until I read Midnight Sun online and it just ended and as I researched it was clear it was NEVER GOING TO BE FINISHED that I got desperate enough to search for endings, and found a wealth of decent fanfiction.  That’s when I realized that I could write down the stories I told myself (this is not my day job).  I started dabbling, and then jumped right into what became a 250k word novel I’ll never be able to publish for money, but that I LOVED writing.  Now it’s a stress release and mental and creative exercise, but very much a hobby.  I generally have to ignore responsibilities to have time to write.  Worth it, though, when things are flowing.

35. Post the last sentence you wrote.  This is from the sprint a few nights ago… “It’s nice, isn’t it?” he whispered.  “Feels good.”

11. What are you planning to work on next? or 17. What things (scenes/topics/character types) are you most comfortable writing?

11.  Well, I honestly don’t know.  Part of me wants to finish up my ancient spirk.  Part of me wants to write something short and sweet for Pinto de Mayo.  And then I have ideas for a 00q story, and a story for The Martian (a tiny and nearly dead fandom… I really shouldn’t bother).  Both of those are compelling and really different (00q probably fairly kinky, though also playing with some typical tropes, The Martian being much more traditional and (gasp) het (who am I even??)).  I still have disaster pinto feels, but I really think my pinto obsession has run its course.  Part of why Cleaving is taking so long is my head is in other characters.  So probably one of those, or I might actually start trying to work on some ofic world building for my long conceived faerie/science tale…

17.  I feel like I’m pretty comfortable with a number of character types, and I’m  comfortable writing a range of “moods (kink and angst and fluff), but I definitely gravitate (at least lately) to “dorks falling in love” scenarios.  I think in some ways this is a step backward.  My first fanfic was really a character study of multiple characters, and how they got from one place (character-development wise) to another.  I think there’s a bit of that in my Pinto writing, but maybe it’s not as developed, and more me just smashing faces together.  After a misunderstanding.  Or seven. 

Part of the appeal of trying my hand at 00q is to try to develop a mission… some technical/action element.  I haven’t done anything like that in a long time.

For the writer’s ask thing, if you’re still doing it: 15, 16, 22, 23, 24, & 25. :-)

Wow, I might have to do these in stages…

15) why did you start writing?  Well, I’ve always told stories.   When I was growing up my brother and I played “Star Wars Legos” before there was such a thing, and I was always making up stories (and extra female characters) for that play.  I have involved stories involving Remus Lupin and various characters that held me over while I waited for books to come out, but I never wrote any of it down until I was reading Midnight Sun (basically author-written fan fic) and it just stopped.  And I went to search for when we might expect more, and I discovered fanfiction, and I never looked back.  My first stories were in that fandom, filling horribly holey backstories and basically avoiding Bella.  But that got me in, and now I read in 6 or so fandoms and write in 3.  Maybe 4 soon.

16) are there any characters who haunt you?  Whoever I’m writing is who’s haunting me.  So for a long time it was Carlisle Cullen, and then Kirk and Spock (and still them sometimes), and then Pinto.  I literally write to calm the voices of the characters in my head and exorcise them.  When they stop talking to me is when the writing slows down.

22) are there any subjects that make you uncomfortable to write?  Anything where there is dubious consent, including big age gaps.  Not that I’ve never written either one, I have.  In the event of the rape, it was basically canon and I made a point of making it horrific and not exciting at all.  But I have a hard time even reading teacher/student sorts of dynamics.  It really squicks me out.  But I suspect that’s because I’m old.  It can be well done, it’s just not my think.  And I definitely think that fanfic is and should be a safe place to explore and fantasize.  I don’t fault anyone else for writing or enjoying them; I just don’t.  I have my own kinks that aren’t for everyone.  I did write someone else’s kink once in Desperate Times (as a gift), and that was a fun challenge…to take something that I didn’t inherently find sexy and make it sexy (or try).  It was fun exploration.

23) any obscure life experiences that you feel have helped your writing?  Well, I draw on life experiences all the time in writing, but I wouldn’t say any of them are obscure… kinkyish sex, having and raising kids, fighting with and making up with a partner…it’s all pretty mundane but hopefully lends some intimacy and authenticity when I write on those topics.

24) have you ever become an expert on something you previously knew nothing about, in order to better a scene or a story?  I wrote a prequel to Twilight that spanned from 1918 to the early 30′s, and music was a big part of it.  I referenced different music that Edward was either learning to pay or going to see almost every chapter, and it reflected his mood at that point of the story.  I learned a LOT of piano music for that story, and still listen to Chopin regularly as a result.  I discovered at least 10 composers I didn’t know, and I also learned all about the early jazz scenes in Chicago and NYC  It was a blast.

25) copy/paste a few sentences or a short paragraph that you’re particularly proud of.  Well, this is a pretty hard task.  I’m in a solemn mood, so rather than some quirky dialog I’ll select something introspective from Compromised.

He hesitates for only a moment before activating the terminal and retrieving the long-range sensor scans he had recorded as the Enterprise
had sped toward Earth. Toward Earth and away from the darkness. He
watches as the black shrinks, not just from the growing distance. And
then, abruptly, a gold-tinged light appears where there had been
nothing.

Spock aches.

It is an illusion, of course. He has
not witnessed the rebirth of his planet. The ship merely moved faster
than light, and beyond the distance which the light from the planet’s
destruction had traveled. But his mother was still alive when this light
reflected from the planet’s surface. He makes calculations, just as he
had when he first recorded it. This light is from when she ran for her
life. This light is from when she meditated in the katra ark.
This light is from earlier in the day, when she would have tended her
small garden. This light… he does not know what she had done the day
before. He did not communicate as faithfully as he promised, busy with
obligations at the academy. He does not know what this light meant in
the life of his mother.

Writing Meme

I was tagged by @loves-pie. Smooch!  ❤

Is there a snack you like to eat while writing?

is whiskey a snack?

What time of day do you usually write?

I usually only have time to write in the evening.  Often late enough that my brain is sorta fried, which explains why everything takes so long.  Sometimes I get to write on the weekends, and that happens in the afternoon.  Sometimes if I’m really on a roll I can write on my phone during my train commute, but that seems less and less frequent.

Where do you write?

On the comfy sofa or out on the patio if home, standing like a human sardine if on the train.

How often do you write a new story?

I tend to do better if I’m only working on one or two things at a time, so not very often.

Do you listen to music while you write?

Depends on the scene, and whether I’m using the music for the story.  I once wrote a…well basically a novel, where a character played piano, and I was always describing the music emotionally.  I listened to a lot of Chopin, Bach, Rach, Scriabin, etc. during those years.  The only music I’ve actively inserted into a Pinto fic is Nakhane Toure’s Just like Heaven in Revelations.  I listened to that album constantly for a few of those chapters. And I listened to some xmas music this summer to help me write the Cleaving scenes.  But generally no.

What’s your writing utensil? Paper or laptop?

Laptop.

Do you have a special pre-writing ritual?

Ask someone online to kick me in the ass and make me write, pretty much.

What do you do to get into the writing mood?

Sprinting helps.  I usually have to read the couple scenes before the one I’m writing to get everything in my head.  Lately, though, I need help to motivate.

What do you always have near the place you write?

Just a drink usually. And my phone.

Do you have a reward system for word counts?

No, though I’m thrilled if I can write 4-500 words in a sitting.

Is there anything else about your writing process your readers don’t know?

Well, I’m not sure this is process, but I’m insecure, like most writers here.  I assume that my fics are too fluffy or too light for the “serious” writers here to like.  But these are the stories the voices in my head want to write… Chris and Zach over the last few years, though that seems to be changing. 

And my stories are always really character driven.  I know the situation the characters are in the beginning, and generally where they end up, but the incremental changes to get from point A to point B, the situations that are going to force the decisions that will create the growth of the character to get from one side of an inflection point to the next… that usually comes from really letting the character take over a corner of my inner space and getting a sense of what has them worried, where their priorities are, what they are doing to themselves that the don’t even quite realize, etc.  If I try to do it from the top down…impose an outline on the character, they usually rebel, and I get nowhere.  But if I put them in a situation and ask them, “so what are you going to do about it?” they generally answer.  And when they do…that is the best feeling.

No idea who has already been tagged, but I’ll tag… @elisa-pie, @hopeforyouyet, @blushingkate​, @mightymads, @nostalgia-in-starlight, @psychoticpterodactyl16, @shards-of-divinity, @suedescripture.

Reblog if you are a fanfiction author and would like your readers to put one of your fic titles in your ask + questions about it

1: What inspired you to write the fic this way?
2: What scene did you first put down?
3: What’s your favorite line of narration?
4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue?
5: What part was hardest to write?
6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?
7: Where did the title come from?
8: Did any real people or events inspire any part of it?
9: Were there any alternate versions of this fic?
10: Why did you choose this pairing for this particular story?
11: What do you like best about this fic?
12: What do you like least about this fic?
13: What music did you listen to, if any, to get in the mood for writing this story? Or if you didn’t listen to anything, what do you think readers should listen to to accompany us while reading?
14: Is there anything you wanted readers to learn from reading this fic?
15: What did you learn from writing this fic?

Bleary, 2, 8, 14

ato-the-bean:

Hey Suede! I’m going to do these one at a time because I’m starting on my phone while waiting for my kids, but will probably want a real keyboard for the last one.

2. I pretty much wrote Bleary in order for the first two thirds, and then skipped around a bit as I was finishing it up. So the first scene I wrote was that 3 a.m. phone conversation in chapter 1… Which turned out to be the first of many 3 a.m. conversations, as well as the first of many times Chris says “Fuck” while stumbling around half asleep. Even now, if I need to get my head back into those characters, I start with that conversation.

Here’s the rest:

8.  Did any real people or events inspire any part of it?

Well, a LOT of Zach’s reactions are things I felt when I had my first daughter.  That sense of being completely overwhelmed, not knowing how you’re even going to manage to have a shower, that everyone’s going to starve because you’ll never get to the store…and I had a partner.  So a lot of those reactions and “things that happen to infants” come from experience.

But the reason I’m SO happy you asked this one is the OUT edition.  I’m sure that you recognized that several of the couples mentioned are real, but the apparent original characters of Dave and John on the cover are actual friends of my family, and I was honored to finally attend their wedding a few years ago (the summer after it became legal).  They attended mine 16 years ago.  They’d been together more than 30, and had battled cancer (and continue to do so).  So I put them on the cover, and put pinto deep inside the issue, because Dave and John are who they aspire to be in Bleary.  Minus the cancer, of course.

14.  Is there anything you wanted readers to learn from reading this fic?

Well, I didn’t set out to do that, but I think one thing is the way a person changes when they become a parent… and a partner, for that matter.  How you end up not focusing on yourself or the ways people have wronged you and instead look at this helpless child and try not to wrong him.  There’s nothing that makes you so compassionate about your parents’ mistakes as getting a few of your own under your belt.  I’m not nearly as upset about the therapy I needed from my childhood as the therapy I hope my children don’t need because of my stupid mistakes.

Also, I guess that in partnerships, different people can have different traits, and ideally those complement each other.  It doesn’t make one better or stronger than the other.  When Nathan get’s sick, Chris is really good in that crisis, basically by not allowing himself to feel any of the potential negative outcomes.  It makes him look string (to readers, anyway), but it could also be argued that he was emotionally distant.  Zach let himself feel what he might lose, and savor every second of the trauma.  When the trauma is over, Zach can move on in relief almost immediately, but Chris falls apart now that it’s safe to do so.  Neither is stronger or weaker…they just react differently.  I’m a Chris, for the record.  I almost fainted when the doctor told me my baby did not have a head injury after falling onto tile from a chair and getting a hell of a shiner.  I had to be brought water before I could be trusted to walk out of the office.  I was so fucking relieved I had a physiological response.  Geek Boy Professor (hubby) had been more panicked during the crisis, but then bounced back as soon as she was deemed well.  We are better together than either of us would be alone, and I tried to make the same the same true of Chris and Zach.

Bleary, 2, 8, 14

Hey Suede! I’m going to do these one at a time because I’m starting on my phone while waiting for my kids, but will probably want a real keyboard for the last one.

2. I pretty much wrote Bleary in order for the first two thirds, and then skipped around a bit as I was finishing it up. So the first scene I wrote was that 3 a.m. phone conversation in chapter 1… Which turned out to be the first of many 3 a.m. conversations, as well as the first of many times Chris says “Fuck” while stumbling around half asleep. Even now, if I need to get my head back into those characters, I start with that conversation.

Reblog if you are a fanfiction author and would like your readers to put one of your fic titles in your ask + questions about it

1: What inspired you to write the fic this way?
2: What scene did you first put down?
3: What’s your favorite line of narration?
4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue?
5: What part was hardest to write?
6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?
7: Where did the title come from?
8: Did any real people or events inspire any part of it?
9: Were there any alternate versions of this fic?
10: Why did you choose this pairing for this particular story?
11: What do you like best about this fic?
12: What do you like least about this fic?
13: What music did you listen to, if any, to get in the mood for writing this story? Or if you didn’t listen to anything, what do you think readers should listen to to accompany us while reading?
14: Is there anything you wanted readers to learn from reading this fic?
15: What did you learn from writing this fic?