cardassiansunrise replied to your post “Cleaving Chapter 5”

I haven’t had a chance to read this yet, but I’ve had a really terrible week so far and seeing this update has honestly made me feel better and given me something to look forward to. Thank you, I love this story so much ❤

Oh, I’m sorry you’re having a hard week (me too, btw).  I’m glad that Cleaving can be a bit of escape for both of us.

bistiles:

today is fanfiction writer’s appreciation day, and I thought about what I wanted to do for today, but I decided that the best thing I could is this.

here’s for the writers that didn’t receive any asks today

here’s for the writers that didn’t make any appreciation list

here’s for the writers that weren’t mentioned anywhere

here’s for the writers that aren’t popular

here’s for the writers whose fics are never rec’ed

here’s for the writers whose fics have a low kudo/commenting rate

here’s for the writers that don’t get reblogs/likes

here’s for the writers that abandon their work half way because they think it sucks (spoiler: it does not)

here’s for the writers that were bashed for whatever they wrote

here’s for the writers that feel like giving up 

here’s for the writers that feel anxious when they post a fic

here’s for the writers that struggle to write

here’s for the writers that never publish anything

here’s for all writers. No matter who they are, what fandom, what ship: you guys are amazing and you make fandom a better place. 

Keep writing.

vulnerable Spock gifs (AOS)

quietoceanlove:

Well, here we are for AOS Spock. Shy, vulnerable, angst-ridden, young Spock. My favorite part of the AOS movies… None of these GIFS are mine, I just love Spock and want to share him!

^ Spock’s not-so-subtle stare of longing. I love this idea that the rules of eye contact are still unclear to Spock with his Vulcan upbringing, so he’s kind of trying to figure it out as he goes.

^ The downwards-upwards glance. There’s something very shy and avoidant about that.

^ This expression is tremendously sad in my opinion, because Pike was Spock’s mentor as well and while Jim can openly express his emotion about Pike’s death, Spock just bottles it up, and never speaks of it.

^ I imagine this is how Spock acts in social environments that aren’t strictly work-related.

^ that look hurts my soul. There’s such loss in those eyes.

^ I think Spock really struggles to understand the value of his life to Jim and the emotions surrounding that. He’s not trying to freeze anyone out; he just can’t comprehend why people care about him. 

^  @sunfell​, here’s that swallow you were talking about! You’re absolutely right that this is a characteristic of Spock’s that is so subtle and vulnerable. Also, this pic really captures the loneliness and pain that Spock endures. He doesn’t feel like he fits in anywhere…

^ I love the way Spock tilts his head slightly.

^ Spock risks his life and his command of the Enterprise in this moment to save the family he’s likely been estranged from.

^ me too. I think this is a really intense thing about Spock. He CAN’T control his emotions at times, and he feels so ashamed about that. Imagine carrying around all this grief and anger and loneliness and struggling with this idea that you’ve betrayed your culture in expressing what hurts you inside.  

^ Instructor Spock. Always apart from others, always different from the rest.

^ NO. DON’T DO THIS TO ME.  

^ You can see the fear in Spock’s eyes. He can’t say it, but he desperately wants Jim to stay, to remain safe beside him.

^  when Spock has to face his fears of being replaced and unwanted. 😥 

^ It is always a struggle to restrain his emotion, to try to meet that compromise between Vulcan expectations and Human desires, to deal with the fallout of his own soul.

I know there are more GIFs out there than this, but I didn’t want to keep you guys waiting too long for more angst Spock. Spock is so vulnerable; it’s what drew me into this fandom.  I’m glad so many people feel similarly. LLAP! Or, you know, go cry over Spock’s need for hugs. That’s probably what I’m going to do now…